WHAT DO I REALLY STAND FOR

My Dearest Brothers & Sisters in the Lord,

Travelling and speaking to hundreds of people or even thousands of people through the years and in so many countries makes one more responsible than can ever be imagined. The thought of passing on the Word of Truth to people across the globe and not living up to it is an awesome thought. As I feed my soul with books written by Spirit-filled men and women, and as I look at the truth of Scripture I have to remind myself of taking in the whole counsel of God that I might be able to give the whole counsel of God; now that is a scary thought.

My heart was just pierced recently by the scriptures regarding lukewarmness and how the Lord is not impressed with and will not tolerate any of it at all (Rev 3:14-22).  One of the things that I began to see more and more in my own life and in the lives of many across the globe is exactly lukewarmness, neither hot nor cold, trying to be active in church and yet spending more time than ever in the pursuit of earthly treasures and pleasures. This is not only among so called "ordinary Christians" in the church but also among so called "Ministry staff and missionaries". We are not exempted from the deception of the enemy consoling ourselves that we deserve the extras. On top of that everyone else is doing the same. It must be okay. We are so comfortable to be like everyone else and fail to realised that we are called to be like Christ and to represent Christ, which means we are to be different, in this rebellious world. Conforming to the world is an easy thing to do. We don't really need much effort or to struggle much with ourselves or with others, but to be really fired up for the Lord and to be like Him is something that most of us are struggling with.

So while we are seemingly on fire for God in all our activities, in reality, we are actually deceiving ourselves as we continue our every day life in hot pursuit of earthly treasures and pleasures. What do I really stand for, the Kingdom of God or the kingdom of the earth? If I really stand for the Kingdom of God than I will be the salt of the earth and the light of the world, influencing others into His kingdom and drawing them to the King of kings. Am I hot with the fire of the Holy Ghost, am I cold with no life within me (the life of the Holy Ghost) or am I being plain lukewarm? Is God watching me? Am I walking in reality? Have I deceived myself and am I being deceived?

Do not be deceived, God cannot be mocked whatever a man sows that shall he also reap.. (Gal 6:7-10). ...a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions (Luke 12:15)... what good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world and loses or forfeits his soul...(Matthew 16:26)...therefore do not store up for yourself treasures on earth....but store up for yourself treasures in heaven. (Matthew 6:19-21). This world is not my home, I am just a passing through....

Remind me dear Lord, that I may be found faithful ALWAYS for your kingdom's sake and for the glory of your name. Lord have mercy. It is a sobering thought and conviction. Where do you stand? What am I really standing for? Am I ready to meet with the Lord and be found faithful? Lord help me to love not the world or the things of the world (1 John 2:15) and help me not to desire the friendship of this world because I don't want to be an enemy of God (James 4:4) Teach me dear Lord not to be conformed to this world but be transformed in the renewing of my mind daily. (Romans 12:2) We no longer follow the ways of this world nor are we bound by it since Christ died to deliver us from it. (Gal 4:4) I have been crucified to the world and the world to me (Gal 6:14) since I have been crucified with Christ (Gal2:20). For freedom Christ has set us free...we must not use our freedom as an opportunity for the flesh (Gal 5:13). Be wise.... be filled with the Spirit of God... (Eph 5:15-18). Thank you Lord for your Word of truth, setting us free from the bondage of the evil one. Keep us always obedient to you in the power of your Spirit. The Holy Spirit is knocking at the door of our heart wanting to get in and burn us with His fire for the testimony of God the Father, in Jesus Christ (Rev 3:20). Open up your hearts and let His glory come in, open up your eyes that you may see the things unseen....stand up and take hold of what is yours in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Ghost. And my God shall supply all your needs and you can courageously and boldly say 'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me'. Is the Lord speaking to you as He has to me? Come to Him and drink of Him... as the Lord so lead. Holy, holy, holy Lord God Almighty who was and is and is to come. Take me, melt me, mould me and use me. Amen.

In His Grace Alone,
Kenny Gan

THE SPIRIT-FILLED LIFESTYLE

Hello Again my global friends,

Its been a great time of learning when I spent 10 days in Israel travelling with a group of general five others. The Lord has always allowed me to travel with my eyes, ears and heart opened for what He wants me to see, learn and receive. It is during this time that I felt I should write about I saw, heard and learned and am still learning. The wonderful grace of God has promised us a life that is totally satisfied and fulfilled or known as the "ABUNDANT LIFE". It can be all of our earthly life. I am always reminded of what I tell others. It is not a problem free life but it can be a worry free life if we are willing and ready to cast all our cares on Him. This worry free or fulfilled life is not only for our good and for our indulgences but more so for His glory. It is not only what we know the Lord will do for us and wants to do for us since He is our Loving Heavenly Father but it is also what we should constantly and daily manifest in our life on planet earth.
Since we are born of the Spirit of God we know that His Spirit lives in us and testify to our spirit that we are His child, and as His child we need to be manifesting the character of the Father in every sense of the word.
There are many who claimed to be "Spirit-Filled" but constantly manifesting the works of the flesh with loads of self indulgences and selfish lifestyles. I have been convicted many times especially while preparing to speak or after speaking about the "Spirit-Filled" life. I discovered that a Spirit-Filled lifestyle is not only manifesting spiritual gifts but manifesting the work of the Spirit in and through our daily living. The Spirit should lead us into all truth (John 14:26) which means we should be people of the word (of honesty and integrity) and should be able to understand the deep things of God (1 Cor 2:10-11), make us a witnesses (Acts 1:8) and make us testify of the Lord (which should make us all a messengers of God or missionaries). Missions should therefore be a lifetyle(John 15:26) and we should always glorify Him (John16:14)and not boast of self accomplishment. He gives us the courage and boldness that we need(2 Tim 1:7)than we should not live in fear even though there are many uncertainties in life , He also helps us to be intercessors and lead us into a life of prayer (Romans 8:26-27) so we can be praying without ceasing ( 1 Thess 5:17) we can pray constantly or be faithful in prayer(Romans 12:9), praying at all times (Eph 6:18) and praying steadfastly (Col 4:2)
The fruit of the Spirit is Love, therefore we should manifest a loving personality, loving people, caring for them and ministering to them. It is indeed a selfless lifestyle and not a selfish, self-centred one. Its a lifestyle of amazing "Freedom", not bound by anything on earth, for where the Spirit of the Lord is there is "Freedom" ( 2 Cor 3:17), and the minds controlled by the Spirit is life and peace ( Romans 8:6). Its a lifestyle of complete obedience (1 Pet 1:1-2)

Everything we do and say should be led by the Spirit. A Spirit-filled person should therefore have a lifestyle of missions, evangelism, witness, prayer, worship, caring and giving, proclamation of God's truth. Its a lifestyle of total freedom from bondage. Its a lifestyle free to do and to fulfil the will of God on earth as it is in heaven.Its the "ABUNDANT LIFESTYLE", a "COMPLETE" and "FULFILLED" one because it is a life God has intended it to be. Praise be unto God!!!

The Word of Truth

HONESTY

Hello My Dearly Beloved Friends,

Its always a joy and a struggle to know what to write and to write it with honesty and integrity. A joy as I recognised the glory of God in all that has taken place in and through my live, a struggle as I consider my continual walk with the Lord and what He thinks of it all. In comparison with others it seems that I am doing better than most but in comparison with my risen Lord I am far from where I should be.

As I continue to minister the Lord's word and to share His work I began to notice how easily we can deceive ourselves in sharing only the good things that has happened and fall short in sharing the struggles that continually burdens us and wears us down. On one hand the Lord has given me the ability to cast all my cares upon Him knowing that He does care for me on the other hand I wonder about the many cares that others had shared with me and how it has taken them captive. It seems all of live is just a stage. We easily put on an act for others to see but knows that that is not what what we are. It is so very difficult to be HONEST with ourselves since we always think we need to put on a good front for others to see. Is this what the Lord would wants us do? Does the Lord wants us to put on an act or does HE wants us to be honest and transparent?

For the last couple of weeks I have pondered over things that I have heard and seen others say and do and have judged them according to my standards and my perception of things. In the eyes of the Lord we are all failures and we fall short of His glory, but His Love and Grace is big enough to over-ride them all. I began to realised that it is so very important to know how to be honest before God since there is nothing we can hide and it is equally important since we should not be embarass with our humanity (which means not our pride but our weakness). We should not fear being honest since that is living in truth and the truth will set us free from fear of being found out or fear of being accuse.

Lord help me not to be defensive of my weakness/es but to be honest with it, especially with you and thereby be honest with my fellow brothers and sisters and with myself. May my life of honesty and integrity be an example of true freedom that will liberate others who are watching me. Teach me Lord to be grateful for the blessings of life and to be honest with the struggles that comes with it, the struggles of the self centred, SELF life.

FOR GOD BUT WITHOUT GOD

Its been another round of Waiting,
Hello again my precious friends around the globe. Its been yet another weekend of surprises with God even though there are many moments of the feeling of inadequacy and unpreparedness. Through these occasions I have been wrestling with the Lord for what He wants to teach me or remind me of. Through continual sharing and observation it seems like a reminder is appropriate. We have heard it all before and like every other human being we have the tendency to conveniently, flippantly or indifferently forget what we have heard and learn (supposedly). Every single time we come to a conference or even on a simple meeting we think we know it all, we have heard it before. For some strange reason most people either failed to practice what they heard or just simply forgot what they heard. Probably because we have the tendency to hear intellectually rather than devotionallY, thinking in our head and not receiving with our heart.As a result many would say I believe in God but somehow not so devoted to God. So we generally end up trying to "WORK FOR GOD BUT WORKING WITHOUT GOD". We are believers in our sub-conscience but not making a conscious effort to be with Him and so we go on our daily lives without Him , serving Him with our own secular wisdom and working for Him with our own human strength and plan. The outcome can be or will be what we make it out to be but not necessarily how God would have it be.
Time and again I am aware of my own shortfall and my own failing and I fear that many more will walk the same road. My prayer is that the Lord will help me not to continue in that mode but make every effort to stay on course with Him, be conscious of His presence daily and going with Him every step of the way in everything I do, say and think, to the praise of His glory.The Lord has opened many more doors of ministry in many more areas of the world, I have to be careful that it is not all done in the flesh, serving Him but without Him. Pray with me my brothers and sisters that the Lord will deliver us all from our humanistic approach to ministry, SELF-DEPENDENT RATHER THAN GOD-DEPENDENT, INDEPENDENT RATHER THAN INTER-DEPENDENT. The Lord be with us all

Kenny GaN

WHO CARES?

Hello there my fellow Saints,

Its been hard trying to write on what the Lord has revealed through the years, through the ages and through the pages of scripture. I have been battling with this issue for awhile now. Week after week we were at our OM praying meeting and constantly praying for the needy nations of the world, particularly nations which are torn by war, civil unrest, poverty or natural disasters. We know that the needs around the world are not lacking, and it's getting from bad to worse. It seems like on one hand the Lord is shaking the nations and on the other hand He is stretching out His hands for all to put their hands in His. I have been convicted responding to the desperate cries of the needy and of meeting the practical needs of the nations (though physically unable to actually do that) through the help of His people as channels of His love and mercy. The many times I have preached the words of John,"This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down His life and we ought to lay down our lives for the brethren (brothers and sisters). If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him. Dear brothers (and sisters) let us not love in words or in tongues but in actions and in truth." (1 John 3:16-18)

It seems that if I am not putting the words of God in action then I am not living by the truth. A few days ago I was somehow led to observe the people around me and my eyes were opened afresh regarding the state of the lost world and the helplessness thereof, more so to the helplessness of the poor and needy. The Spirit of God quickened my spirit and I wept. It felt like the Lord is sadden and grief over the conditions of men and women who are separated from Him and are like sheep without a shepherd, harassed and are totally lost without Him.With wars, crime and natural disaster literally millions are perishing into eternity without an opportunity to respond to His love and mercy.

May we (me especially) respond to the needs in the kindness and love of God, that the world will know that Jesus Christ is indeed the Lord of heaven and earth and the Lord who is their Creator, the Lord of all. I am praying that the Lord will deliver me from a harden heart that cannot respond to the crying needs of the lost and needy and fail to live my life by His truth. I have prayed many times, Spirit touch your church, stir the hearts of men. Revive us Lord with your passion once again. I want to care for others like Jesus cares for me, let your rain (Spirit) fall upon me.

May the Lord have a hold on us, our lives and all that we are and have. Because the Lord cares, we should care also.

For His Glory

Kenny

FEAR - UNWELCOME AND UNWANTED

Hello again my beloved brothers and sisters in the Lord.

Its taking me a little longer to update my blog it seems; Not too sure if it has anything to do with getting older. However it is always a blessing to hear many saying that they have been touched and changed by the Word and the Spirit of the Lord. The instruments that the Lord uses are generally weak and empty vessels but praise be to God that He is powerful!!! His word and His Spirit demonstrate that reality as He speaks and convinces men and women of His ability to transform and change not only their lives but their circumstances and their situation. Even if He doesn't change their circumstances He will grant them the sufficiency of His grace to withstand any onslaught of the enemy in whatever form.

Fear therefore is not a natural outcome of our Christian life though it may be natural for those not born of the Spirit. I guess that's why we were told to not be anxious (or not to worry or fear) of anything but in everything with praise and thanksgiving we should let our request be made known to God so that the PEACE OF GOD THAT SURPASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING WILL RULE OUR HEARTS AND MIND IN CHRIST JESUS.

There is no fear (worry or anxiety) in love but perfect love drives out fear (1 John 4:18). When we love the Lord we embrace Him fully and therefore there is no room for us to embrace fear or worries or anxieties. There is only room for one Master. Fear and all other elements are unwelcome and unwanted. It doesn't belong and there is absolutely no room for it. So grow in love for the Lord and be full of Him.

For those who are still wondering what to hang on to, fear or the Lord, I hope this will help you to see that anything outside the Lord will only strengthen the fear factor. Loving the Lord and being full of Him drives out the unwelcome, unwanted fear, worries and anxieties, be it of the future, of sickness, struggles or pain. Leave it outside of your life and let the Lord remain in there permanently.

I am reminded of my own time with the Lord. I can easily get sidetracked and fill myself with things unnecessary and unhelpful. Be strong, be firm and be bold in standing against the enemy of our souls. Time is running fast. The Lord is near. Lord help us to make our time and our lives count for eternity. Amen.

Kenny

A FOOLISH EXCHANGE

"Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles. ........ They exchanged the truth of God for a lie and worshipped and serve created things rather than the Creator, who is forever praised."

Its been almost a month now since my last update. As much as the Lord has amazed me with His greatness, goodness and faithfulness, Christians have equally amazed me with their foolishness (I'm included in this since we are all the same) in chasing after the wind. We spend a lot of time treasuring up earthly goods, giving our full attention in acquiring more and more of them and missed out on the Treasure of all treasures, JESUS, Who is the sum of ALL THINGS.

Spending time sharing the word of God and listening to the words of men helps to differentiate between the urgent and the important. With constant travel and in ministry one gets to hear the discontentment and the instability of those who spend their time in pursuit of created things rather than the Creator. Created things are incapable of filling in the emptiness of a godless life, though many claimed to believe in God.

The response to His word through the many years of preaching indicated that there are spiritual vacuum in the lives on both believers and unbelievers, hence the hunger for spiritual truth to free them from the bondage of lies and deception from men (marketing products and consumer goods) who were used by the evil one to lead many astray. After speaking to many it became obvious that ignorance to the truth of God's word led to an inevitable path of deception and bondage. The awareness that the truth can indeed set people free gave many a new found hope and direction for living. It is therefore exciting and worth the while in spending time studying and meditating on the word of God and sharing it. When men and women are set free from the slavery of sin, the world and the devil they are therefore unashamed to be called the servants or even slaves of God since they discover the privilege and the honour of serving the King of kings and the Lord of lords. Glory be the Him forever and ever. Amen.

The Lord has indeed been awesome. He has been gracious in healing and strengthening my physical body and also in helping Bee Lee with her physical challenges. It is now up to me to allow Him to strengthen my inner being. We are now back in London and there are quite a few ministry commitment that awaits us. Pray with us that more will experience true freedom by obeying His word. Thanks for your prayers. It meant a lot.

Kenny Gan

Jesus is the Only Reason for Every Season

THE CRY OF MY HEART

Hi its me again,

Its been good being able to have the extra time with the Lord but being alone with God is an awesome thing. The conviction that the Spirit brings into our soul is always overwhelming. It is the very heart of God that the Spirit convicts us with. Meeting people with pain, reading of stories of people going through pain and hearing the painful experience and cries of many from around the world has stricken me with the kind of sorrow and sadness that I have never experience before. It grief over the sight and sound of those in suffering, physically, emotionally, spiritually and in every other way. If this is God's heart than why am I not move to do anything, why are Christians around the world still dancing to the tune of self indulgence and care-lessness and have become so oblivious to the sound and cries of helplessness and hopelessness, and why are there so few that readily say to the Lord, "Here am I, send me"? Have I become hard of hearing? Have I been blind? Have my heart hardened that I can no longer respond to such needs? Has my heart actually been given to someone or something else other than God? What have I given my heart to that I no longer feel the way He feels, that I can go on with life with no sense of obligation or willingness to be an instrument of God to touch the lives of others. How have I managed to call myself a follower of Jesus Christ without bearing and manifesting His love.

Brothers and sisters have you ever wondered about the cry of your heart? Is it for God or something else? Its something I need to seriously think about as I seek live like Him. Pray with me that the cry of my heart will come from the cry of His heart. May the Lord be gracious.

THE LONGING OF MY HEART

SURPRISE!!??!

I am too. There is just this urge to want to write this. For the last couple of weeks I have had a real desire to want to be with the Lord. Its strange how often the scriptures becomes so real that it is not scary but awestruck, especially when the conviction of His holiness paralysed us into godly fear. As I have shared in our latest newsletter about the sin of self seeking indulgences. I had to look back in my early years with the Lord when hours can be consumed quickly just by being in His presence and enjoying the sense of His awesomeness. I have missed the days when singing "How lovely are Thy dwelling places, my soul longs for the courts of the Lord.; My heart and my flesh sings for joy to the Living God, you are my King and my God". (Psalm 84:1) was so real and personal, not that it is no longer personal but the longing of my heart seems a little more distant. I need to get back to my initial commitment or my first love when I echoed with the Psalmist, "One thing I asked and that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold His beauty and to inquire in His holy temple." (Psalm 27:4) And "Bless the Lord O my soul and all that is within me bless His holy name." (Ps.103:1) Because "In Thy presence there is fulness of joy." (Psalm 16:11) I know that He longs for me more than I normally have any kind of longing for Him. I realised more and more that that's what the human heart is longing for "THE FULNESS OF JOY" which can only be found in Him, which is His presence. I just needed to share that as much as I can so that others may enjoy that same fulness, that same joy. The urgency of bringing more and more people into His presence cannot be brushed aside since more and more people are getting into depression and discouragement. Many have also lost their joy of being with the Lord and has left the faith. The longing of my heart musty not only be for my own satisfaction but must be in line with the longing of His heart which is to see all of creation coming before Him and getting lost in His goodness and His loveliness. The cruel world that we live in has created a greater longing within the heart of man for His greatest good.... but they have all gone astray and look to all the wrong places and to the wrong people.

MAY THE LONGING OF MY HEART BE FOR THE GREATEST GOOD OF MAN AND FOR HIS GREATEST GLORY. Lord have mercy. May we all "Take delight in the Lord, that He will give you the desires of your heart". To Him who is able to give us more than what we can ever ask or think, to Him be all praise, honour and glory. Amen.

A Longing Heart

Kenny Gan

THE MANY THOUGHTS OF GOD

Hi Friends & Family,

A month has passed by and there have been many many thoughts that have gone through my mind and prayers. Now that I am no longer the team leader at Forest Hill it gives me more options to think about other things and that can be a problem.The tendency is to try and build my ministry from my recent experience, visits and talks with the different people that I/we met. It's easy to formulate ideas (so called vision) and passion (in most cases its more like impulse) and think that it is a God given vision. With constant busyness and a non-stop active life it can be easily understood (in our own mind) that we are doing great service or exploits for God. To make it even worse it is when we get positive feedback from people that we are ministering to. Lately I was reminded of the many times that I have shared about developing a 1. Christlike life, 2. Manifesting a Christlike personality, and 3.Demonstrating a Christ-empowered ministry with the ultimate purpose of glorifying God.

Challenged by the Holy Spirit about my so-called Christlike life, a life of God likeness (or godliness) which is also interpreted as the holy life, I was brought into remembrance the things that I did that stumbled others without confessing or repenting, my present thought life, the intentions of my heart (some times) in doing ministry and the many covetous attitude that some times went unchecked. This is a reminder that a daily soul- searching practice must be a part of my everyday life since holiness, Christ likeness and godliness is not an option for a child of God.

Challenged also by the unconventional methods of Jesus' way of ministry (like healing by putting His saliva in the man's tongue and mixing His saliva with mud and putting it onto the blind man's eyes) and my many rationale of what I think is wrong and should happen, forgetting that the Lord in His sovereignty can do whatever and however He wants with people and ministry. A submission to His sovereignty is needed and a non-judgemental attitude needs to be put in place since our ministry and life will be judge by God Himself.

Paul's words to us is so appropriate that we should "Take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ".

So at the present moment it ought to be my vision, passion and dream to work towards allowing God to form Christ in me. It has been a little difficult to really hear God when I know there are things that have separated me from the Lord, probably due to things that I have done or have not done. My thoughts have been more what I want to do than what He is doing. Thus it is more thoughts that can cause anxiety than thoughts that rest in the promises and the will of God.

Holiness is what I need, wholeness is what He gives. Therefore a holy life is a wholesome life full of His grace and goodness. Ideas about the future is great but thoughts of God is better. Thanks for reading and praying. Pray that we will not take too much credit for what HE HAS DONE.

Thoughts of Him and His Glory

Kenny Gan

Ongoing Battles & Trials with an Ongoing Focus

"While we are all grateful that the hand of the Lord s upon our lives yet we must never forget and never be complacent and be off our guard".

It is time for me to acknowledge my gratitude to everyone who has prayed for me and my family for the last many months and years. The Lord has been so gracious in seeing us through the many uncertain days (uncertain with the cancer but certain in many ways of the future). Many of you from around the globe have stood with us and we have been awed by God's great love through His people. As you have heard even before we discovered the good news that the cancer was cleared and so was the liver cirrhosis, I was hit with retina detachment of my right eye. That got corrected pretty quickly with great success but soon there was a bad ear infection that has caused a hole in the eardrum. This is not really settled yet, and just before coming to the Philippines I was hit with another high fever and an infection, of which the infection is yet to be diagnosed; The end of days for the devil is coming close and he is not ready to throw in the towel. However he knows that he "WILL NEVER WIN, EVER" even if he tries to deceive many in thinking so. (As I write this I am scratching from the itchiness of the infection) When we've been continually hit with many obstacles and challenges there is that temptation to want to look at ourselves and our impediment, and while on our beds the enemy began sowing seeds of deception, fear and lies. Learning to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ needs to be consistent and ongoing if we are not intending to fall into the schemes of the enemy. The thought of God's glory must never be blurred by our pain, discomfort and struggles. It is a wonderful thing to see the Lord snatching His people out of the devil's snare when we can share of His ever living presence and His ever present help for those who are in need. He is never far. He is always at hand and can be reached by the stretching out of our hands in humility and in prayer. This is our God the Servant King who calls us now to follow Him, to bring our lives as a DAILY OFFERING OF WORSHIP TO THE SERVANT KING, and HIS NAME IS JESUS!!

Yes there will be ongoing battles and trials but we must face it with an ongoing focus on The Author and Finisher of our Faith. I have yet a few days to speak in Cebu before flying to Singapore and Malaysia to bear witness unto the Lord's faithfulness. Please do continue to stand with me and my family as we press on in this battle. To Him Be All Honour, Glory and Praise forever and ever. And thanks to you all for being with us. Enjoy your day with Jesus and don't miss out on Him.

THE POWER OF REMEMBRANCE

Dear Faithful Friends,

Its me again with an overdue update. Just to firstly praise God for His amazing goodness and to thank all of you who have been faithfully praying for us and standing in the gap on our behalf. The Lord has been gracious in removing the tumour from my nose and from my lymph node. On top of that He has also restored my liver and so now there are no more liver cirrhosis according to the latest scan result.

As I write this I am made aware that this is a recollection of what were and what now is according to the grace and mercy of God. I would therefore echo Ps. 103:1-4; "Bless the Lord, O my soul, And all that is within me, bless His holy name; Bless the Lord, O my soul and forget none of His benefits; who pardons all your iniquities, who heals all your diseases. Who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with loving kindness and compassion. (NASB, Read till verse 6)

For the last couple of weeks I have been reading Deuteronomy and it is known also as the book of remembrance where the whole of the old generation passed away and a new generation were waiting to enter the promised land. The Lord reminded the new generation of what He had done for their forefathers and how their forefathers was deprived of entering the promised land due to their stubbornness and rebellious nature. Constantly they were told to "remember" or "forget not".

Firstly I realised that remembering God's goodness and dealings helps us to put things into perspective, especially how He brought us out of slavery into a life of total freedom from sin and the nature of sin. Instead of ,moaning and groaning about how much we are suffering we will be thanking God for what He suffered for us.

Secondly our remembrance of His goodness, His faithfulness and His mercies will grant us greater confidence to move forward in faith, remembering that He who began a good work in us will bring it to completion (Phil 1:6) since HE who calls us is Faithful and He will do it. (1 Thess 5:24; Heb.10:25)

For our regular partaking of the Lord's supper we should remember Him, His life, death, resurrection and return. This should bring great encouragement and hope to our souls.

Remembering who He is, what He did, what He promised and what He is capable of doing will definitely bring about greater courage to live, walk and move forward in Faith. So praise the Lord for a BOOK that constantly reminds us of the God who was, and is and is to come.

We can look back with thanksgiving, stand firm and conquer, move forward in faith to the ALMIGHTY, FAITHFUL GOD who chose us and have made us His children. Hallelujah!!! Glory be to the Father, and to the Son and to the Holy Ghost.

Forever Grateful

Kenny Gan

Pressing On Not in Defeat or Discouragement

To My Tireless Prayer Warriors,

It is such an encouragement, constantly receiving emails, facebook messages and phone calls from folks around the globe reminding my family and I that you are with us and not "have been" with us. In the midst of all the motivational and encouraging emails and letters there are the occasional discouraging, honest confessions of missing out on God (actually I get more with conversations). This is not because these folks are not normal, in fact they are very normal, just like most people.

To be honest we meet a few people who try very hard to not show discouragement (I do too some times when, in a brief moment, my eyes and my mind is on something else other than the Lord) or despair but can't help it for the lack of peace and assurance. Therefore many times when we do share our grievances we try to stay on top of our circumstances and frustration and saying "I am pressing on". Usually the tone of "pressing on" sounds a little more low down than upbeat. I guess this is where my time of listening to others help me look to myself where I am each and every moment. We know what Heb 12:1-2 tells us that while we are running this race of life we are to fix our eyes on Jesus and not on our discouragement and circumstances.

I WANT TO STAY ON TOP!! It's a great feeling!!! And I know I can do that when I am standing on solid rock and not on sinking sand. Praise God that from London to the ends of the earth or from Singapore to the uttermost parts of the world. It is the same because Jesus is always there. I am encouraged. I am glad that the Lord has so graciously given me the privilege of sharing this from weekend to weekend and from country to country to be an instrument to draw all men unto Him. Like the Apostle I want to continue to say (with God's enabling grace), "We proclaim Him, admonishing every man and teaching every man so that we may present every man complete in Christ". For this purpose also I labour, striving according to His power, which mightily works within me (Col 1:28, 29) And yes, it is His power, by His Spirit and not our own strength and wisdom. Praise be to God indeed! I am helplessly giving myself to abide in Him on a moment to moment basis as He give grace to do so. I am learning to use my God given time to write to more people, pray for them and with them as we are all connected in that one Spirit to fulfil that one purpose which the Father has laid on us all.

Our next three months schedule will require lots of grace, strength and wisdom from the Lord. Thank you for standing with us you who are our arms, leg and body. The Lord is still the head!! Hope to see many of you in the next three months. Do let us know how we can bless you if you know we are coming your way. One bonus that I am thankful for is not just the friends that we have but the Lord's goodness in giving us also great food along the way. Now that my taste buds are returning I am going to minister to my flesh a little more too. It's wonderful!!

SO PRESS ON WITH ME, and keep praising the Lord as long as we have our being and as long as the Lord grant us breath. (Psalm 146:1-2) Enjoy the Lord and you will enjoy Life. Amen.

In His Grace

Kenny G.

THE WAITING GAME

Dear Saints,

Sorry for the long silence but it does take a while to regain a fresh motivation and inspiration to write something decent. It's something I have been thinking about the last few months. Waiting daily for things to happen and for good news to come seems like a real waste of time. (to a lot of friends and well wishers) Sitting at home and resting seems like a waste time too so waiting is not a fun thing to do. It's hard to imagine, for those who knows me, that I am actually not travelling or preaching. However as I looked back in time I realised that while growing up in Singapore as a kid waiting was an everyday part of life. Since becoming an adult things have changed since society have created a new world order of instantaneous results and immediate needs met by advance technology that produces instant food and instant cash. So we have gotten used to the immediate response and a quick and swift answer to all our questions about things and whatever else we so desire. Patience is no longer a virtue. Come to think of it I just got upset yesterday while "waiting" to see an eye specialist to follow up on my eye surgery. The nurse somehow sat on my documents and failed to pass it on to the specialist concerned. Another evidence of the folly of unrealistic expectation.

Since discovering and treating my nose cancer I have received many disheartened looks from many friends and relatives whose sympathy gave the idea that my immobility and inactivity seems wasted time. "Waiting" for my treatment to be over and for God to heal me quickly or immediately, after much prayer seems like a painful defeat. Some may have felt that I got depressed because of my sudden change of pace, inactivity and immobility. 6 months went by and it seems like nothing was happening with life and everything have come to a standstill...is this true? In the mind and perception of most average person or Christian this is probably true if we are just waiting for self-fulfilment, self-satisfaction, self-assurance or building our self image. Our inactivity and immobility seems to us totally unproductive and unfulfilled. This is because we are looking more towards what "I" am doing, what have "I" accomplished and why am "I" stuck here for six months? Because of our growing need for recognition and building our SELFimage we have become dependent on what WE can do and what WE can show to the world. In regard to our performance we must therefore not be seen to be wasting time and unaccomplished. So we live to please and impress the world rather than pleasing God. Therefore waiting is not a game we like to play. Waiting has somehow been removed from our vocabulary.

However when I look at scripture the Lord seems to say something else, like, They that "WAIT upon the Lord shall renew their strength" (Isa 40:31). " Be still before the Lord and Wait patiently for Him" (Ps. 37:7). "Wait for the Lord and keep to His way" (Ps.37:34). "Be still and know that I am God"(Ps 46:10). "Be still and see the salvation of the Lord" (Ex.14:13). Being still and waiting is not aimless if it's before the Lord that we are being still and it is for the Lord that we are waiting. I discovered that while I am not doing anything it doesn't mean God is doing nothing either. While waiting for the Lord I know that it doesn't mean that He is disorganised and and is not too good with His timing. In my case I realise that He wants to renew and restore my health and my strength by giving me the rest that I needed and to take time to see and to hear what He actually wants to do and is doing. I have been running almost non stop for the last 32 years and the Lord in His mercy and grace have somehow able to slow me down, which is not a bad thing.

This is the time to rest in the Lord and to be restored in the vision the Lord has prepared for me for the near and immediate future. Its time to "Be still and know that He is God". Waiting is generally God's way of getting our attention to stop what WE are doing and saying and to start to hear and see what HE is saying, what HE is doing and wants to do in and through our lives. Pray with me that the Lord will grant us the grace to wait upon Him to accomplished His purpose and be totally glorified as He so deserve. For to Him is the glory, the honour and the praise forever and ever. Amen.

-Kenny Gan

The Difference

Its been another long silence after the last update. I have had many thoughts and these thoughts are provoking and challenging. When left with uncertainties we think things through. Sometimes they are unclear and sometimes is clearer that a mirror because the Lord added light to it.

With the Lord there is never a dull moment even though there seems to be nothing happening (or so we think). The Lord is always at work, seen or unseen, felt or not. Through some of my dull moments the Lord added in some exciting and fresh thought and its so easy for me to just daydream about it.

Glorifying God in all things and at all times is not easier said than done rather it is easier thought (not necessarily said)and the procrastination of actually doing it. This is the difference with those

Who studied much, thought through much, daydream about it much and did very little with what they thought. In the last couple of months I have thought through much but have not made too much difference because the thoughts have not had an application, so its nothing done.

I am thanking God for walking with me through the period of radio therapy but unfortunately I didn't managed to walk through with others as the Lord has done with me in their struggle against challenges, lies and deception that the devil placed in their path. I really believed the Lord has chosen many of us to walk with others as He has walked with us. Don't just have good thoughts about them. Make the Difference and show it through helping others walk with the Lord. Make the difference by not thinking it but doing it.

Thank you to all you have been helping me walked through these couple of months. The Lord be with you.

The Reality of Faith

"I have been crucified with Christ it is no longer I that live, the life I now live I live by faith in the Son of God who gave His life for me" -Gal 2:20

For this verse to ever have its full impact in our lives it has to become a living experience. It is an every day experience of different sorts and in different situations and circumstances. We are not meant only to have one experience but many since it is meant to be daily. Thus our testimony will always be fresh and relevant in our every day living and witness.

Everything that is written in the scriptures must become an experience and a reality if one is going to be an impactful witness for the glory of God. Just lately through my own recent experience with cancer the verse, 'What does it profit a man if he gains the whole world and loses his life' takes on a new meaning, a new reality, a new experience. I believe there will be more of the scriptures, the written word, that the Lord wants to make into a LIVING word when it comes alive in His children. At this point I am seeing it as ME!! He started His good work and He will bring it to completion and for that I have no reason to complain.

For faith to become tangible it has to be seen, felt and touched by the lives of those whose testimony was build on it. The God of Faith is doing His work in me and in each one of us. Neither you or I should resist it. I know it will be more painful if we resist since we are pushing His hand away from our lives. "Have Thine own way Lord, have Thine own way, Thou art the Porter I am the clay. Mould me and make me after Thy will as I am waiting, yielded and still". The second part of this hymn is a challenge for most of us, the waiting, yielding and being still is not something we enjoy doing. I was reminded of a word from the Lord that I gave to a brother, "My grace is sufficient for you, and my strength will be made perfect in your weakness". This same word should suffice for me since it a word from the Lord.

Thank you Lord for continually speaking to your children and not living them helpless and hopeless. Thank you that through your still small voice you bring strength and comfort for which I rejoice. Faith is becoming a new reality for me. I am praying that it will also be for us all daily. The Lord be with you all my brothers and sisters.

THE JOURNEY OF FAITH

Hi Friends,

Its been awhile and yes many are wondering what is happening to Kenny Gan since his discovery of his physical challenges. Like everyone else its a time of contemplation and prayer, seeking God in the midst of all the comment, advice and prayers. Thoughts constantly run through ones mind with many discouraging outcomes (please note these are just thoughts) but amazingly the thoughts of our Gracious Lord remains the ruling factor and helps destroy any unwelcome negativity.

This is another phase of my walk and journey with the Lord. It reminds me of the many times I have heard men and women talking about their journey in life. For most people the journey is theirs and their destiny should therefore be self directed and planned. You create your own destiny. Unfortunately none of us know exactly where we are going except when we gave our lives to Him and know for a fact that He has a future and a destiny for us.

The only thing about this future and this destiny is that it cannot be seen and it has no definite date.Therefore it seems obscure. Even the One that we have believed in is unseen, and unless one has been walking with the unseen God one will never know His certainty. The Lord in His mercy has revealed Himself to thousands and countless others through the ages and they have testified to His reality and faithfulness. I guess I have to say that I have been one of the very privileged ones where the Lord has ben gracious and kind enough to reveal Himself to for the last 32 years.

So, it is a journey of faith because it is walking with the one who is unseen and trusting in the promises of the unknown destiny. The journey is definite, the destiny is definite because the existence of the One who promises is definite. It is a journey of faith also because we walk daily with the Unseen God as He daily life us up when we grow weary or tired and He will lead us all the way to our destiny, HOME.....WITH HIM. Therefore we can boldly say, "Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will not fear, for Thou art with me, Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me...... Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever". Praise be to God!!!

So my dear friends begin your walk with Him now and not wait till the shadow of death confronts you. Know that though He is Unseen He is there with you. So do rejoice, the Lord is near, Glory be to His name.

Kenny Gan

THE BATTLE OF THE MIND

I guess by now all those who have read my previous blog would know that nasal cancer is my latest challenge. Since receiving the news I have not had much ministry since everything has to be put on hold. It's amazing how many well wishers, brothers, sisters in the Lord and friends we have who actually care about us.

It is a challenge to not allow thoughts to dominate our lives , especially thoughts that can discourage and paralyse or damage our emotions. The devil is good at using this. While the Lord uses people to encourage us the devil can easily sow seeds of self pity, doubt and self-centeredness to keep us down. The mind can effect the emotion which in turn will effect the physical condition. For the last couple of weeks my mind has been much on the treatment and how long that will be and how long I will be inactive from ministry. I realised that I don't have to resign myself to inactivity but continue to be a blessing wherever I go. Ministry is about people (I am always ready to tell others) and I meet people everyday wherever I go. Pray with me that the Lord will help me use every opportunity to glorify Him.

For those who are burdened by circumstances and by the challenges of life, let not the enemy have a hold on you but count it all joy for the privilege of bearing His name and the opportunities of glorifying Him through the challenges we face.

Praise the Lord indeed that His Words that says, "MY grace is sufficient for you" to the Apostle Paul 2000 years ago is still valid for us today. And Paul said, "And God is able to make ALL grace abound to you in ALL things having ALL that you need you WILL ABOUND in every good work. We must let the written word become a living word, made alive in and through us that men may see our good works and glorify the Father. By His grace indeed and His mercy I will let His word be made flesh in me while I dwell among the people in my world around me. To Him be all glory, honour and praise, ALWAYS!!!